October 6, 2010

"AM" bitious???


When asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would wonder what to say because I had interests in various fields and would never have a definite answer and the one who questioned me would never understand what I wanted to do in life. I probably felt I would become one from the 100 other different choices I had in my wildest dreams... but destiny was routed elsewhere!

So a quick run over all I wanted to be in life -

1st to 2nd grade - Naval Officer... Maybe I was confident I would shed some (some???!!) of the flab easily. I wanted to be one because my dad was a Naval Officer and I was immensely proud of it.

3rd grade - Nun.. (*bangs forehead on the wall a 100 times! Why on earth did I want to be one!!*) Because... I thought Nuns were into a lot of social service. The thought of converting to another religion never came to me... I had presumed they had nuns in all religion and I was "all set" to become a 'Hindu Nun'.. Hee hee!! Thank god that didnt last for long coz 'Then there would have been 'nun' :P

4th to 5th grade - I had lost a little weight and I happened to watch Miss World pageant (for the 1st time) and I was so awed by the combo of beauty and brains and walking the ramp, flaunting their 'Cinderalla' gowns (not considering the bikinis!) I felt Modelling (FULLY CLOTHED in caps) was the one for me! Whoa! One "roll model" I would have been!!

6th to 8th grade - Beautician (Probably the after effect of modelling dream). I started focussing more on my looks.. ahem ahem.. used to paint my nails, cut them into different shapes, had all possible colours on my nails, with the addition of rings dangling on each nail.. Skin care, hair styling had all become a part of my daily routine... My parents freaked and I freaked too :D

9th to 10th grade - Fashion designer cum interior decorator... Was playing with a lot of colours then! Was into sketching, oil painting, designing etc.. Given a choice to go back in time, I would still want to be an interior decorator! Now that was quite a serious one...

11th - Since I was forced to take up Science stream, I decided to become a Doctor but the thought of poking knives into humans and blood gushing out, people puking, juices coming out from all possible corners .. err.. I happily decided against it! (I didnt want to end up becoming a patient cum doctor!)

12th - I switched from Bio to Comp Sci and "seriously" planned to take up engineering and most interestingly a Sound Engineer so that I could be a part of the film industry and edit movies... go on stage and wins some film awards (tsk tsk...an Oscar was also part of the dream) and blah blah blah.. (*My Heart went on and on and on...*)

UG - Though I took up a degree in Comp Sci, I started imagining myself as a Jewellery Designer. My cousin married a Jewellery Designer and I wanted to be one too and considered taking up a course on that! Even now I am clueless as to why that didnt materialise...

PG - My subjects in Masters ranged from Film Making to Advertising to Journalism to Photography to Marketing Research (and disappointingly I loved them all and that all the more added to my confusion!) so I concluded - Probably I would become a Multi-faceted artist (aarrghhh!! somebody slap me!) Considering the different transitions I underwent mentally over the years *fanning myself* this thought came with a little pride, I must confess! Starting from becoming another 'Barkha Dutt' to 'Nandita Das' to an 'Alyque Padamsee', the 'glamourous' list was just endless!! I would stand in front of the mirror and act like I was reporting a crime scene or a calamity or even go to the extent of giving a live report from a hijacked plane where I was one of the hostages and was secretly reporting the exciting yet life threatening situation... I was so impressed by my acting that I considered acting in tele serials but nothing came my way... Sigh :( Parallely I would enact being a Host in a TV show and interview 'Karan Johar' in 'Coffee with Namita' or I would be interviewed for diving into the ocean and saving a baby from the jaws of a whale!

Now that was some list!

Though my interest lay here and there, my present work lets me do a little of communication, advertising, photography (ahem ahem) journalism (scoops from office!) and oscar winning performances (when I take 'sick leave')!

Without doubt, I AM...ambitious! Dont you agree? :D

August 27, 2010

I tried... yet cried...





I frantically raced,
But it caught up with me,
With a wry smile on its face,
Enjoying the fear in me...

I tried to be brave,
Yet started crying...

The jaws of dark,
Stood menacing and bold,
Slicing me with its look,
So severe and cold...

I tried to be brave,
Yet started crying...

I battled from its grasp,
But it held me even tight,
Begged for it to let me go,
But it wouldnt budge from its stance...

I tried to be brave,
Yet started crying...

Like a prisoner i was held,
Almost tortured to death,
Cried for my life,
When there came a ray of light...

I was released and relieved!
And yet... I didnt stop crying...!

July 27, 2010

A story began...



Our first walk, I remember,

By the beach shore,

On an afternoon so fine,

Cocooned by the smell of warm saline...


Waves hit softly, breeze murmured,

The sea weeds danced to a song of love,

Lost in thoughts, solving our lives crosswords,

Totally oblivious of a sunny journey together.


Not a word we spoke,

Not a touch we felt,

Serenity engulfed both,

Making the moment just perfect...


I wish for us to be one...

During autumn, spring, winter or sun,

Writing our own story amidst storms or mist,

Dear, together lets make fresh footprints !


Psst psst... I am sorry.. I had promised to do this posting on Friday but err.. I was digging deep into my inbox for this image (sent by Ram.. blush blush.. almost a year and a half back!) that I had so preciously saved and couldn't find it and when I got it (of course Ram had to send it to me!! sigh!), I remembered I had left behind this poem at office (tishk! a knock on my head!)!! So here it is... Better late than never! God bless...


July 23, 2010

Oops!! I did it!



Ooops!! I did it!! Finally I land into the 'blogging' arena...!!

Hello everyone!!

Me launching into this is not a very long story so here I go..

I was fascinated by my friends blogs and I decided to have one too and so I created a log-in ID (more than a month ago) and chose the title for the crazy love for chocolates that I have! Though I wasn't waiting for the right "muhurtham" (the auspicious time), I never got myself to take that time off to patiently sit and type something out... It kept getting postponed for unreasonable reasons :). I finally decided - Today is the Day! But why today? Couldn't come up with sensible reasons so please accept the two reasons I cite here.

1) Ram, my better quarter (for the Size "O", I mean the big ZERO that I am) and me completed 4 months of happy married life...

2) And Ram left for an onsite assignment for 3 weeks... (huh... so?!)

With the reasons given above, what better occasion could I think of to post a poem written about us...!! (Batting eye lids!!) Like planned, now that the 'Welcome' post is done (Errr... if you didn't understand what this posting is about...geee :D), watch out for this "chocolaty & creamy" space for the poem which would be done tomorrow...

Warning : I am no great writer and hence my postings would be as simple as the person I am... :D (yeah yeah.. we get that... yawn! please continue..!)

So if you have landed on this page by mistake, its totally fine! Just read it and forget it!

Welcome to me ;)

God bless.